New Year’s Eve…
Meaningful reflection happens in the down-time of my days. During the holiday season, any down time is rare. But let me tell you, when I’ve had a moment here or there, my reflection is flooding in. It’s crashing on the shores of my consciousness and before I have a chance to capture it, process it, and glean any lessons from it, the pace of my day washes it back out to sea. This leaves me feeling anxious. Overwhelmed. And in a recent momentary swell of reflection I realize…I feel anxious and overwhelmed quite a bit. A lot, actually.
So as I give myself some dedicated time to use my reflection for my greater good, I am deciding that I do not want to carry anxiety and overwhelm with me into 2014. The best goals are based on a feeling you want to have (or in this case, not have), and then the goals need to be broken down into achievable and measurable tasks. The challenge I’m facing, in this moment of reflection, is that there is SO MUCH I want to do!
I’ve got my calendar out, I’m getting organized, planning, strategizing…all in hopes that a highly structured routine will bring ease to my ambitions. What I always remind myself is that is it okay that my role as Mother is always priority #1. What I need to teach myself is that stepping away from some of the tasks I have assigned myself in this role is okay, is allowed, and is even for the greater good of my children right now. The feeling I get from being a Mom is more rewarding than anything else I can fathom right now. Next goal: visualize myself experiencing pride, devotion, self-love, and deep meaning in the other dreams I have for myself. It won’t replace those I feel in my role as Mom, but there is infinite room for it to sit beside my Mom role. After all, my roles do not define me. My children have received the gifts of my focus, and there are many other parts of me that are waiting, arms open, to receive the gift of my love and attention.
I’ve mentioned before that I have a deep calling to be of service. To share a message, to guide others down their chosen path, to teach through my skills, talents, and example that love is the way, the vehicle, the guiding light, the home-base. As I create the framework around this goal; website, Facebook page, Instagram, Pinterest, product labels, videos, blog posts, exercises, workshops, retreats……whoa! There it is again…overwhelm…anxiety…
I’m thinking that maybe my journey itself, and my sharing my feelings and experiences along the way, may be helpful to others. Some of the people in this “personal development” arena that I admire seem as though they’ve got it all together. But we all know that this is an illusion. My thought is maybe by being transparent, and honest, and real, I am being of service to those who hear my message. Maybe by being gentle with myself, by accepting and even loving my flaws, by sharing my reflections and what I learn from them, by staying centered in love…I’m giving others permission to do the same.
What do you think? I would LOVE your input. And if you have any advice on how to tackle the feelings of anxiety and being overwhelmed when you’re looking at your big dreams, please send them my way!
Blessings to you all!