From April, 2014, a journal entry found today that inspired me…
I’ve been taking a step back lately and reflecting on the challenges I have been experiencing the past few months. My plate has been very full, but my cup has not been running over, so to say. I sensed myself running at a pace that was unsustainable and it was leaving me completely depleted by dinnertime every evening. I was feeling completely disconnected, and like if I slowed down everything around me might just crumble. Well, crumble under the unreasonably high expectations I had for myself. I wasn’t serving anyone—my focus was definitely on doing and not on being.
I’m truly called to help people that feel this type of energy in their lives every day. I think it’s rampant in this country—it’s almost the American way. In light of this calling, rather than call myself a hypocrite or a failure, I sat myself down and reminded myself that I have the skills and the tools to turn things around for myself. And in doing so, I could really examine how I can guide others through the process of slowing down, reconnecting, and tapping in to the authentic and vibrant life they want to be living.
One of the first things I always do when I’m swirling in the vortex of work, parenting, carpool, grocery shopping, putting out fires, dealing with deadlines…is I get outside. Nature has a glorious easeful flow and putting myself in that awareness starts to open things up almost immediately. On a walk through my neighborhood I was pondering Root, Bloom, and Soar. Metaphorically, it represents so much to me. What I discovered that day was at any point in time we’re all either Rooting, Blooming, or Soaring. It’s a cycle. Much like the cycles of nature herself.
I am most definitely in a Rooting phase right now. I got wrapped up in worldly responsibilities, set standards that were not soul-based, and didn’t allow for space. The heart and head space required to mindfully navigate all the pieces of my rich life. The process of Rooting is about getting back to the basics. Its pulling out the journal and scribbling down what you’re grateful for. It’s taking long walks in the woods or by the water and letting your mind drift. It’s making sure you’re getting plenty of rest every night, eating clean, and staying hydrated. Its self-care at it’s best! As a friend reminded me the other day, none of us have enough time…we’ll never get it all done. But as we’re moving through our days—are we Rooted in our values, are we listening, how deep are we breathing, are we recognizing the miracles happening all around us? Revisiting this process is essential now and again. Otherwise we may find ourselves exhausted, resentful, unfulfilled, and without hope.
I’ve been working through The Desire Map by Danielle LaPorte and am so grateful to have the fruits of this journey to work with during my time of Rooting. I have uncovered five words that encompass how I want to feel every day of my life. These five words are the thickest, strongest roots holding me to the Earth, keeping me grounded while shooting me toward the heavens. They build my foundation and I’ll use them to guide me as I move on to the Blooming phase of my cycle. Each day I will check in and ask myself, “How are you going to bring INSPIRATION, FREEDOM, FLOW, RADIANCE, and CONNECTION in to your choices today?”
I’m also taking my self-care mindset and performing some homecare today. We are energetically connected to our environments so working on my inner self is supported by working on my living space. I’m moving through each area of my home, using the principles of Feng Shui to witness where I can clean up some stagnant clutter and clear some energy. I’m lighting candles, playing music that lifts my spirit, and I’ll take a walk outside to snip some spring blooms to adorn my home. It’s a breezy day here, and as I write this I see my hammock gently swinging in my yard. I might also have to allow some time to lay in it and just BE. In doing so not only will I see that nothing is crumbling because of my pause, but what I’m nurturing and sending out in to the world might actually help to Root more than just me.